Aftermath

I am probably crying myself to sleep every night over you while trying hard to keep on a happy face during the day.

Most likely,I still think about you all the time, everyday.I probably still sit where we used to sit, imagining my future with you in it, then thinks back to the past and shatters. Whenever something happens to me, good or bad, I'm most likely thinking of you and wishing that I could tell you all about it...

Whenever I hear a song on the radio I think of you, not only because the song reminds me of you but also how much of my broken life right now can relate to the song. Whenever I watch a romantic movie or sees a cute couple, hand in hand, I start to die a little more inside knowing that what we used to be is now just a memory. Whenever I think of you, I  smile, yet at the same time, I'm suffering..

Although I may not show it, I am suffering a great deal of pain-

I'm suffering from remembering those happy moments that I'll always remember but it seems that you've already forgotten. I'm afraid that you might forget me along the way as well. On the outside, I may seem like all smiles and laughter, but what is behind the mask is someone who knows really well how to hide themselves. You have no idea on how much pain I am suffering..

It still hurts me, because the memories of you and me are not only too hard to forget, I also don't want to forget,cause you're not with me right now, though sometimes I try to forget, but everything just somehow reminds me of you all over again.

I read your old messages, letters again and again .. and sometimes watching pictures of you and me.. because I miss you and that's what I used to be right now.I miss your hugs,I miss your smiles.I miss you entirely. I love you. I fell for you,but you just watched me fall. Seriously, if you didn't intend to catch me now, then don't lead me on, cause the harder I fall for you, the more pain I'll end up having to go through afterwards..