Deep breath

Deep breath. Cause I don't want to regret..

That you always drifted in my mind every time we are apart.
That I gave you everything and sacrificed something.
Cause you were my first priority just like how eggs are on the top of your mother's grocery list.

That I told you my deepest, darkest secrets and that its yours now to tell the others.
All the things that I wrote to you, every word written to you in the ink with all my emotions;
All the love notes I made for you secretly.

The origin of our relationship. The moment of our getting-to-know-yous;
The moment we had a dinner together for the first time when you took me out.
All the thoughts I had about preparing for the next chapter of our relationship;
Thinking about us gazing at the gazillion of stars.

Every single tear that my eyes shed. And start to feel ashamed of myself;
 that makes me feel that I want to hide from you.
Hoping I can bring back my tears every night, because they say too much.
Every droplets shouts about all the unspoken words.

You are in my mind since I met you, since I started talking to you.
Clinging in every wrinkle of my brain, jumping every beat of my heart.
The moment your name was tattooed on my skin.

I don't want to end up standing out of the rain hoping..
 that it will wash away all the feelings and the memories I had with you.

Reality.
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